Foundation

Today I attended a workshop on leadership.  I honestly went into it trying to figure out how I am going to stay awake since I am horrible at just sitting in lectures.  But I was pleasantly surprised when I found myself engaged in the learning experience.

There was a section on balance between mind, body, and spirit.  We answered a few questions, scored ourselves, and found out how balanced we were between the three.  We then went and stood with others whose highest scores matched our own.  Next, a discussion ensued about why we feel like that area is our strength.  I am not very articulate when speaking so I listened to other answers, chimed in bits and pieces, but I did not really have much on the topic. Well that was until I did my own personal reflection.

My strongest area is spiritual.  And I was no where near balanced!  The kicker of this revelation is that developing my spiritual awareness has actually NOT been my focus in quite some time.  I focus on the changes I need to make with my body in order to be healthy, or how I need to  continue to develop my mind because we are always learning and growing, but I have not made my spiritual development a priority.

I go to church periodically, I pray sporadically , I read my Bible occasionally, but that aspect of my life has been put on the back burner for soooo long.  So the fact that that was my highest score surprised me.

But it let me see just how foundational Christ's presences is in us when we truly become one of His.  Yes I need to nurture and focus on that relationship.  Yes, it should be a priority in my life.  Yes the fact that it has been on the back burner is nothing to brag about.

But, what I can brag about is the fact that my heart is changed.  The second I opened up my Heart and chose to follow Him, He became the foundation of who I am.  He is still evident even when I hide my light.  He is still present when I am consumed with myself.  He is still glorified even when I do not make Him a priority.  That is just how magnificent my Savior is.  I am racked with sin, I have let Him down, but He has not turned His back on me.  His love is still my rock, it is my cornerstone.  He may have built up this magnificent wall, but I let my sin put cracks in that wall and my fears tear down portions of it, but the foundation of who I am and who I will become, even when it is not a priority, has not and will not change.  And that puts my heart at peace! :)

Yesterday and Tomorrow but Never Today

There are two words that need to exit my vocabulary immediately!  Those words are "tomorrow" and "yesterday".

Everyday I live, those two words dictate my entire day, my decisions, the activities we do, the people I see, my drive to work work out, my eating habits, my time with my son.

Tomorrow I will start a diet
Tomorrow I will play with Kole more.
Tomorrow I will work out.
Tomorrow I will clean the house
Tomorrow I will go see this person or that person
Tomorrow I will sell my It Works
Tomorrow I will overcome this complacency
Tomorrow I will read my Bible...
Tomorrow. Tomorrow. TOMORROW

Yesterday I worked hard, so I don't need to go work out
Yesterday I was hurt by someone so I will close my heart up
Yesterday I didn't sleep well so I will sleep all day today
Yesterday I blah blah blah

I can not LIVE if these two words are going to be part of my vocabulary.  And if you think about it there never really is a tomorrow.  Tomorrow always turns into today.  and then I am in the same boat.  Waiting for tomorrow and blaming yesterday.

Well no more!  My tomorrow is right now and my yesterday never was!  My life will change.  I will have my todays!  Today is the day that my excuses are no more.  Tomorrow is only a date.  Yesterday is a memory not a shackle.

But most importantly, Today is the day that I LIVE for the One who DIED for me.  Today is the day that I repent.  Today is the day that His love is enough.  Today is the day that my body becomes His temple.  I am made for so much more than my yesterdays and tomorrows.  I am meant to be His everyday.