I got this! I will graduate and I will have an RN after my name. After all, "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me"!!
It is funny how easy I forget that. I forget it so easily it is almost ridiculous. Let me tell you about how strong I have been the last few weeks. I would give you an amount if I could. But I have been a wreck. My stress level is through the roof. I stress about school. I stress about Kole. I stress about money. I stress about relationships. My mind never slows down. My emotions are on edge! As Drew would say, I go 0-185 in two seconds flat! Kinda crazy. Well if I am honest, it is a lot crazy.
I have not been strong at all. But as I try to figure out why, the answer is so blatantly obvious! It is like that repeating billboard going down the highway or the thousands of flashing lights right in front of me.
Let me tell you the answer. Brace yourself, you make get smacked in the face with it. It is because I am not supposed to be strong!
Yup! That's it!! I am not supposed to be strong.
Why you ask? It is because my Father wants to do it for me. He wants me to rely on Him for my son, for my stress, for my school, and for the fear I have about relationships.
He tells me that repeatedly:
"Do not worry about anything"
"He is made strong in your weakness"
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."
When I start relying on myself and those around me instead of Him, that is when I fall apart. Those people will let me down. They will hurt me, they will come and they will go, some will come and will stay. But all will hurt me. I will hurt all of them. But there is One who never fails me. There is One who loves me despite my craziness. There is One who understands His creation and wants to be with me in my worst moments. There is One who loves me the way that it was intended to be.
Yup! I got that! And other's can have it too! Others can be loved the same way! Once you are loved by God the way that it was intended to be, it is soooo much easier to love those around you!! Once you have that Rock who is made strong in your weakness, you can be the weakest you ever have been and come out unscathed because the hard part was taken care of for you!
Amazing? I think so!
