AMAZING

So I was driving home from school and the song about "I will rise when He calls my name" came on. I love that song. I picture myself being so broken from pain and then rising up trough His strength and His power when He calls to me. I hope you can picture or have felt it because it is an amazing experience. Then, the guy came on and was talking about a speaking engagement he was at. This lady came up to him and told him that she was blessed and that she could see angels standing all around the guy protecting him. WOW can you imagine being so wanted by God and your work, trough God, so important that he sent angels down to protect you from Satan? I know most of us believe that there are demons who influence our thoughts and everything but is the opposite true as well??? I fully believe that it is and not only are these angles important for a man who is speaking to thousands, but to us "little people" who the Lord is using in smaller situations (or what we would consider to be smaller). AMAZING!! When you are doing the Lord's work, weather it be in large numbers or just overcoming sin, the Lord sends his Angels to protect you! As I am writing this, I believe that he has sent his angels to me to protect me so that Satan does not hinder my writing. As you minister to youth, your kids, your congregation, your friends, your family... As you are fighting the temptation to not go out and drink when stressed, or to lose your temper when someone is upsetting you, to love those who hate you, the Lord has angels ready to protect you.

BUT the most amazing part is the Lord Himself is protecting you (if you are a Christian) The HOLY SPIRIT!!! Who is God in the Spirit is inside of you!! YOU have all the power of Christ inside of you at this very moment ready for your use to bring Glory to the Lord. All you have to do is ask and make a conscious effort to use it and have faith that you can use it. This power is greater than any Power these angles have. He loves us more than these angels. He wants us to bring Him glory more than these angles.

All you have to do is chose. Do you chose to use this protection? This will not make your life any easier. It will not make Satan leave you totally alone (he will prob try to get at you even more). You will not be given all you need or think you need or want. What you will get is an amazing fellowship with your Lord and Savior.

For those who have not asked Christ into their lives, I beg of you to do so. Life is so hard for everyone, but it has to be even more so for you. Do you have hope? Do you have the comforter living in side of you? Do you have Forgiveness for those things that you are to afraid to tell anyone?? Do you have the UNCONDITIONAL love that comes from only one source.

I am so excited about this blog! I am acutally almost shaking as I type it because it is some pretty AMAZING truths that the Lord has shown me today. Hehe, as I was driving a few minuets later, I saw a white bird flying by. I believe that was the Lord telling me that theses thoughts and feelings are inspired by Him and will be used by Him. I write this in complete faith that He wants me to. I write this in utter prayer that you will use this power in Christ to overcome whatever it is that you are struggling with. Or that it is used to inspire a congregation, a group of youth, or your friends/family. I also pray that you ask the for the Lord's angels to protect those you care about and His work. Wow I am so Awe inspired right now!!

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Is it bedtime yet?

So I am exhausted. Kole was up at 5 everyday over the weekend, and then when I don't have him, I wake up at 5 just out of habit. I started a class so I have to use my brain now. But most of all I am exhausted of giving of myself.

I feel like the Lord likes to ask to much of me. I am worn out by continually praying for myself and for Kane and for Kole and for my friends and family. a. I am worn out by serving in anyway I can to anyone I can. When I feel the Lord's tug to do something for Kane or make sure a friend is ok or when I need to take care of Kole, I do it, and most of the time, I feel like it goes unnoticed or that it did not make a difference in that person's life . I know this is good, but oh so exhausting.

I am not complaining. I actually am going to try to encourage those who read this. Life is exhausting. The Lord continually asks us to serve and love and deny ourselves for those around us. But the amazing thing is that when you need rest, you can find it in the Lord. Matthew 11:28-30 Says "Come to me all you are weary and heavy laden and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my burden is easy and my yoke is light."

When I think about this verse and wonder what He was talking about, I think about what His burdens were. His burden and job was to die for us so that we can have eternal life, all the while being perfect. And He says that was easy??? I do not have to die for anyone and I have Grace because I am never going to be perfect. Also to add on to my shameful complaining, He tells me that He will give rest to my soul!! So I have it made, yet I still feel like I deserve more.

Are you taking a rest in the Lord today or lately? I know that I have not and I desperately needed it. He does not lie, and He will give freely, but you have stop and ask. "Be still and know that I am Lord". Rest and the Lord and then you will be fully refreshed!

Comfort

My bubby is sick. He has had a temperature for 2 days now (though I think it finally broke.) He woke up at 3 yesterday morn, and I let him cry. When he woke up at four, I felt that he needed me. I went and got him and brought him back to bed. I could tell right away that he did not feel good at all. He was warm and fussy. I tried to comfort him, but he would just roll away and fuss some more. No matter how I tired, he would not let me comfort him.

As I laid there and watched my hurting son refuse my comfort, I thought of my Heavenly Father and His comfort for all of His children.

I have been hurt a lot, in many different ways. I have hurt other people, in many different ways. But if I have learned anything at all in the last few months of my life is that the Lord is not sparing in His love and comfort for His children. All you have to do is ask. He has never not given me comfort when I have needed it most.

Do not refuse the comfort that you have in Christ. He will give, and He will not refuse you. No matter what has happened, no matter how bad you are hurt, no matter how you have hurt someone else, no matter how many friends you have to comfort you whether it be one or one hundred, His comfort is perfect.

My Hearts Cry

I write this blog as a broken-hearted woman. I was going to write about fear. I started it yesterday but never posted it because it just did not "feel" right. Today I know that the reason it did not "feel" right, is because God wanted me to wait. He had something more important for me to share then what I had started to share.

I have been hurt. I have been hurt by the people who were called to love me more than themselves. I say this not to make anyone feel bad but so I can truly and fully display Christ's power that He can have in one's life. Not because I have heard it, but because I KNOW it. I have let Him take me and make me more like Him. I have am able to love when I should not, I am able to give of myself even when I have nothing left to give. I am able to forgive (I truly and hole-heartdly forgive you), when I should not be able to.

I do not do any of these because of me and the power I have. I do them because I ask and I receive. I use the Love, Forgiveness, Selfishness, and what ever else I need, that Christ gave me to give to others. I use the power Christ has over Satan to overcome my sin and find a way out of it. I sin, always will, but when I need it most, I am given a way out.

My heart's cry, my desperate desire, is that God is given Glory. What ever that looks like, what ever I have to go trough for that to happen, I will honor and glorify Him. I pray that you may know how hurt I am so that you may know the power that Christ has to comfort and love those in need. I am where I am supposed to do. I am going to do the only thing I know how to do (pray). And I am going to be what ever Christ needs me to be (as long as I am able and I know it is Christ's guidance), in order to help those in need. Not just any one person, but everyone. I know that my words mean nothing, but I also know that the Holy Spirit can use them to show Christ to someone else. So again, my hearts cry and my desperate desire is that these words and my pain will bring him Glory